Kristin

A Huge Weight Has Been Lifted Off My Shoulders

khutchins2@cox.net — Thu, 13 Dec 2007 23:50:44 GMT

For the past 3 months I have been in a state of frustration because not only did I not have my job with the real estate company any longer, but I had to take a part time job at a local movie theater. While I am not bashing those that have to take a job for a sake of something, but I realized a week in that the movie theater=the zoo when I worked there. It is for kids in high school or just going into college, plus the pay isn't paying my gas back and forth. So anyway I have been desperately trying to find an office job and while I have the experience as a receptionist I didn't have enough experience in a lot of other areas. I got a call this past Monday for an interview as a legal assistant. I called today to find out what was going on with it the Human resources manager told me that since I didn't have my paralegal cert yet I couldn't be hired for that position but they did have another position available to work within the foreclosure department. I went in today and met with the manager of that department and then as luck would have it the other officer I met with graduated from Hilltop as I did and she lives close to me. Score!! So anyway I got a call from the Human Resource manager about 15 min. ago and I got the job!! I have never been without a job for more than 3 months and this was starting to scare me that I wouldn't be able to afford the mortgage any longer and I would have to move and all this stuff. God I think that I will stop being so stressed now and I can live a normal existence now. Yay!!!

To My Mom

khutchins2@cox.net — Fri, 16 Nov 2007 14:31:36 GMT

4 years ago I got that call that NO ONE wants to get in the middle of the night. I remember banging on the wall telling Josh that I didn't have my mom anymore and him holding me and telling me that she was in a better place. I remember the next day going with my dad and picking out the plot(which is beautiful by the way on top of a hill next to a running stream of water) and deciding a lot of stuff that a 26 year old child shouldn't have to do, but my dad was not able to do it. Apparently I became the rock.

4 years later I can be happy in the fact that I know I have my mom around me and I'm not as sad as I was about her passing. I guess that it does get easier with time.

Can I just tell you...

khutchins2@cox.net — Thu, 11 Oct 2007 18:14:32 GMT

That I hate writing Case Briefs?? My first one and I'm more confused than ever. Good news is I found some examples so hopefully I did it right.

Connor

khutchins2@cox.net — Sun, 12 Nov 2006 15:30:15 GMT

Happy 2nd Birthday Connor!!!

Weird Happenings

khutchins2@cox.net — Sun, 04 Jun 2006 00:34:15 GMT

One it is flippin' HOT!!! The fans aren't doing shit and there is no breeze!! I'm dying!

The second thing is on Friday I got an interesting comment to a post I did back in February from an anonymous person claiming something that could or couldn't be true. I was told to call that person out, but who knows if they'd say anything more and HOW does that person know this information? I was also told to just leave it alone until I had solid evidence, so we shall see what happens.

3:30...I Should Be Asleep!

khutchins2@cox.net — Tue, 07 Feb 2006 11:43:49 GMT

It is 3:30am and I woke up from crying. It wasn't a bad dream, but it sure feels like it! In 2 days(if I can't figure out a way to stop it) one of my lives will be over...for good! People talk about broken hearts, and let me tell you it sucks!

When someone has been your life for over 10 years you get used to that person and their ways, whether you like it or not you come to love them for everything...good or bad. In one second flat though your world could be ripped out from under you with no forewarning. This week, last year my turmoil of a life had begun and what would eventually be the breaking down of what seems like a lifetime of work, I have grown stronger in some ways, but weaker in others.

I've been told to "get over it" I've been told that I'm not helping the situation by dwelling on it, but guess what? Its hard to "get over it" when you have known nothing else than that one person who used to hold you at night and tell you that they love you and promise you a world that in the end couldn't give you.

In two days my marriage will be over and for the first time it has hit me hard. Am I crazy, (for everything that has happened) not wanting it to be over? And for the first time in my life, I don't know how to stop it.

Life Is Good!

khutchins2@cox.net — Mon, 06 Feb 2006 00:24:15 GMT

Today was the first time in forever that I laughed harder and smiled more than I have in ages! It was great to hang out with old friends and talk sinister shit and just be stupid. Haven't done that in more than a year and for the first time in my life I'm ok with everything.

khutchins2@cox.net — Sat, 21 Jan 2006 18:50:18 GMT

So yesterday I was in a fluff over personal issues, although for a mere minute I was happy in the morning. I stopped to get gas for the car and there's this guy whistling and he looks at me and out of no where goes, "I'm happy today. Its my birthday!" The way the guy was happy about getting older really made me look at life and smile. Well that quickly disappeared as soon as I got to work.
Then I get a call from my supervisor for my construction. "The cabinets are here, when were you going to paint?" A little heads up would have been nice. So today I had a guy come out and he's going to paint EVERYTHING on Monday(happy dance) cause my house is going to be beautiful...I'm hopefully estimating maybe another month to month in a half before everything is done.

Random Thoughts

khutchins2@cox.net — Tue, 17 Jan 2006 01:27:13 GMT

Over the past year a lot has changed. This year started off shit and it is pretty much going that way for me at the present moment as well. I'm being faced with a lot of challenges at the moment and none of them are good. My future right now is so unstable its scaring me. I've lost control and I don't know how to get it back.

29 and Counting

khutchins2@cox.net — Sat, 07 Jan 2006 15:10:54 GMT

So an hour ago I was officially 29. I wonder though if what I call my curse(every other year is bad for me) has been reversed though. This year was supposed to be "my good year" but it is already starting out shitty! Oh well, tonight I'm going out to dinner with some friends and that's about it. The excitement never seems to cease with me!

Getting old!!!

khutchins2@cox.net — Sun, 11 Dec 2005 15:56:55 GMT

So I didn't get home until 3 hrs. ago and why am I up? The fucking sun!!! I haven't stayed out this late since I can't even remember, but I had fun. Went shopping all day, picked up some toys for the kids, went to Lolitas(not as good as they used to be in High school!) went back to my friends apartment and got ready to head downtown(her boyfriend is a bouncer for a cigar shop downt there) and we ended up drinking beer and watching Resident Evil until he got off at 2. With no sound it was pretty interesting, and I actually liked it! We then headed to the local Denny's and hung out there until 3:40. I am so tired!! You know you're getting old when you are out past your bedtime! Its really sad!

Soft Tacos??

khutchins2@cox.net — Wed, 23 Nov 2005 21:29:14 GMT

Are rolled tacos supposed to be limp and soft?

2 year anniversary

khutchins2@cox.net — Wed, 16 Nov 2005 14:15:27 GMT

I can't believe that 2 years has gone by and you have missed so much! Too much has happened, but as I was told the other night I'm a survivor and every challenge that has been brought to me I've faced by myself. You would be so proud of me! Everytime I turn a corner in this house I'm not expecting you to pop out, but sometimes I think that your presence is still lingering... Last night though, while making stuffing(cause I had a craving for it) it did bring back memories of helping you, but I didn't cry, I smiled.
I will try and visit you today.

I love you mom and I miss you more than you will ever know!

First Birthday!

khutchins2@cox.net — Sat, 12 Nov 2005 20:06:11 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CONNOR-BEAR!!!

Sick Again!!!

khutchins2@cox.net — Thu, 08 Sep 2005 09:13:49 GMT

So I haven't updated in like...forever, but nothing much has been going on. All I know is that its 2:06 and I'm fucking sick...to the point of my chest hurting everytime I cough. I am sitting here with some tea trying to make this damned sore throat go away. I'm debating whether to call in to work sick considering I'm playing receptionist now because they're "cross training" the current receptionist into my position. Decisions one has to make!

Nice

khutchins2@cox.net — Tue, 07 Jun 2005 18:57:12 GMT

12 years...this is where it ends and this is where it stays!
Next week 4 years.

I guess its easier to forget than to remember.

Star Wars

khutchins2@cox.net — Tue, 07 Jun 2005 05:28:25 GMT

So I'm probably behind the times, but I saw Episode 3 with Nathan tonight and let me say that Yoda kicks ass and one more thing, did anyone else notice how Hayden Christiansen resembles Joey Lawrence?

khutchins2@cox.net — Sun, 05 Jun 2005 02:48:56 GMT

Another fun day was had today. We went to Sea World and we decided to do something different and took a guided tour of the Penguin Exhibit. We went behind the scenes and met one of the penguins that sit out front. Nathan and Connor both got to pet it and Connor was all about it. He kept laughing and moving about like he wanted to play with it. At that point we all moved into the actual exhibit and it being 23 degrees we were pretty frozen. Two emperor penguins waddled up to us along with a macaroni penguin and proceeded to make noise, so much that Connor wasn't having it and started to cry and then stopped when it shut up. We got to pet the macaroni penguin and then we left the exhibit.

It was a very interesting day and now we can say we've pet a penguin!

Tonight was fun!!

khutchins2@cox.net — Sat, 04 Jun 2005 07:38:49 GMT

For the first time in my life I went salsa dancing. It was quite interesting considering I haven't danced that way in more than 13 years. I danced with 2 guys that were way more advanced than I was, but they took pity upon me and let me dance the way I wanted to. I did have fun and I could never imagine that I would ever do that in my life. It felt good.

Happy Birthday Nathan!

khutchins2@cox.net — Mon, 23 May 2005 04:31:26 GMT

I can't believe that 7 years have gone by. At this time 7 years ago I was in the hospital waiting to meet you and at 11:30 you came into this world. It has never been a dull moment with you and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the whole wide world.

Triggering Thoughts

khutchins2@cox.net — Mon, 09 May 2005 05:33:01 GMT

Tonight I went back into my journal, I don't know why but it was interesting. So much has happened in the last 2 years that it makes me wonder about things.

I wonder if you still read this? If so, go back to my February 2003. Answers from a recent conversation will reflect the answer I gave to you and it proves that you were and still are loved. Interesting to find out what you think, probably will never get an answer, but the "what if's" will never go away...

There's that saying that time heals all wounds. Does it really or does it cover it up like a thin band aid until something triggers your brain to think about it and it opens up wide again.

It is 10:30 and I'm tired. A pillow awaits me. Good night.

Today

khutchins2@cox.net — Sun, 08 May 2005 20:38:48 GMT

My mother's day has been good so far. I got a cute little story from Nathan and then I got a tile with Connor's hand print on it that he made at preschool. It was very cute. I also decided to take Nathan and Connor to the zoo today because we haven't been there in awhile. They have demolished Tiger River! I heard that they were building a new area for them, but who knows. It has drastically changed over the 4 years since I've worked there, but we just got home and I'm thinking about taking a nap now.

Dueling Pianos

khutchins2@cox.net — Sun, 17 Apr 2005 18:26:21 GMT

I went to a very interesting place last night. It kind of reminded me of LIPS in the sense that this place was audience participation. Its called The ShoutHouse. Its 2 sets of partners that feed off each other while playing the piano, making jackasses of themselves along with the audience and singing anything that comes their way except for Bob Dylan and someone else. For the first time in a long time I laughed so hard I thought I was going to pee my pants!

Ponderings

khutchins2@cox.net — Thu, 14 Apr 2005 19:44:50 GMT

Life has taken me for a ride over the past 12 years. I'm finally at that point where I'm about to stop and take my leave. It is over and yes I'm sad, but my next life is about to begin and we'll see where it takes me.

Sad Day

khutchins2@cox.net — Thu, 07 Apr 2005 16:40:18 GMT

I have kept quiet. I'm tired and drained of the past month.

I have cared and trusted someone for 12 years with my entire life and in one month it was torn away from me. The man I loved and cared for is gone now, taken over by some unforseen force. I now know what I must do and it will be hard. I have to let go. My life will not be the same and I know that. I have the support of my friends and family (on both sides) and I will live again.

I loved and still do love you!

R.I.P.